HOW ?

Artist: John Lennon lyrics
Title: How?
Albums: Imagine (1971)

How can i go forward when i don't know which way i'm facing?
How can i go forward when i don't know which way to turn?
How can i go forward into something
i'm not sure of?
oh no, oh no.

How can i have feeling when i don't know if it's a feeling?
How can i feel something if i just don't know how to feel?
How can i have feelings
when my feelings have always been denied?
oh no, oh no.

You know life can be long
And you got to be strong
And the world is so tough
Sometimes i feel i've had enough.

How can i give love when i don't know what it is i'm giving?
How can i give love when i just don't know how to give?
How can i give love
when love is something i ain't never had?
oh no, oh no.

You know life can be long
And you got to be strong
And the world she is tough
Sometimes i feel i've had enough.
oh no, oh no.

How can we go forward when i don't know which way we're facing?
How can we go forward when we don't know which way to turn?
How can we go forward
into something we're
not sure of?
oh no, oh no.

Nirvana - Dumb (Unplugged In New York)

Dumb Lyrics :
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone,
But I have a light
The day is done,
I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy (x3)

My heart is broke
But I have some glue
Help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover

Have a hangover (x3)

Sit in the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up

I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone,
But I have a light
the day is done,
I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Or Maybe just happy

Think I'm just happy (x3)


I think I'm Dumb (x12)

Minggu 26/12/2010

Hello Loner,

Hari minggu ini gerimis di siang hari, mendung sehari penuh besamaan dengan pertandingan sepak bola Indonesia vs Malaysia untuk final pertama di kandang Malaysia. Yak gue bangun memang rada siangan karena gue dapet telpon dari temen gue kalo gue ga jadi ngajar karena si ibu yang gue mau ajarin komputer buat edit-edit foto ngga bisa datang, yap gue lanjut tidur aja, hehehe.

Tiba-tiba gue kebangun karena Ibu gue di semarang telpon dan menanyakan keadaan gue, menanyakan apakah gue udah makan apa belum, ya itulah tugas seorang Ibu, untuk selalu care ama keadaan anaknya.

Dan lagi keadaan financial dan pekerjaan gue belum juga stabil seperti impian gue, setelah beberapa pekerjaan gue yang udah mulai selesai sekarang gue bingung mau ngapain dengan saldo yang bener-bener tipis, hehehe. Hati gue resah dari kemaren mungkin karena kesepian, apa karena ga punya duit? bisa jadi semuanya itu menumpuk barengan di kamar kecil ini, seharian gue ngelakuin hal yang gitu-gitu aja sih, sempet nyoba nnton tutorial affter efect tp bosen, trus lanjut ama nonton film Dancer in the dark (terharu gue ama cerita filmnya) terus browsing-browsing ga jelas. Ya semoga nanti malam gue merasa lebih baikan.

Blind Melon - Change

Change Lyric :
I don't feel the suns coming out today
It's staying in, its gonna find another way
As I sit here in this misery I don't think I'll ever see the sun from here
And oh as I fade away, they'll all look at me and say,
Hey look at him I'll never live that way
But that's ok their just afraid to change

When you feel your life ain't worth living, you've got to stand up and
take a look around you then a look way up to the sky
And when your deepest thoughts are broken, keep on dreamin boy cause
when you stop dreamin its time to die
And as we all play parts of tomorrow
Some ways we'll work and other ways we'll play
But I know we can't all stay hhere forever
So I want to write my words on the face of today
.....And then they'll paint it

And oh as I fade away they'll all look at me and say,
hey look at him and where he is these days

When life is hard you have to change.

Sejenak Hilang

Cast : Dimi, Galih Astro, Bhaskoro, Bayu, Aga Ghozal
Story / Director / Camera : Aga Ghozal
Editor : Olik
Song : The Living Dead by Suede

The Sundays - When I'm Thinking About You (live)

Electric Factory, Philadelphia, PA. Dec 2 '97

When I'm Thinking About You lyric :
Over the rooftops a plane in the sky
beat of a bass drum cars passing me by
under a bridge dark then back into light
a river of raincoats and a forest of faces
still for a moment then red into green
slow shuffling shoes whisper sight unseen
row upon row of houses return an empty stare
let the daydream for a little while longer

ah.. yeah...
hope I'll never wake
when I'm thinking about you
(yeah) hope I'll never wake
cos now I'm thinking about you

two-minute hailstorm then melts into rain
(oh) sing me a rainbow it's sunny again
swallows overhead while the traffic snarls below
could I (could I) keep dreaming for a little while longer

hope I'll never wake
when I'm thinking about you
so that you know - I never want to wake
cos now I'm thinking about you

when you're searching your soul
when you're searching for pleasure
how often, pain is all you find
but when you're coasting along and nobody's trying too hard
you can turn around and like where you are

(Yeah and) I hope I never wake
when I'm thinking about you
and I close my eyes (dear)
now I'll never never wake
why should I stop thinking about you.

Craig Armstrong feat Liz Fraser - This Love

This Love lyric :
This love
This love is a strange love
In that it can lift a love
This love

This love
I think I´m gonna fall again
And ever when you held the hand
And turn ´em in your fingers, love

This love
Now rehearsed we stay, love
Doesn´t know it is love
This love

This love
Doesn´t have to feel love
Doesn´t care to be love
It doesn´t mean a thing
This love

This love loves love
It´s a strange love, strange love

This love
This love
This love is a strange love, strange love
I´m gonna fall again love
Doesn´t mean a thing
Think I´m gonna fall again
This Love.

Cocteau Twins - Heaven or Las Vegas

Heaven or Las Vegas lyric :
Who'll ever win?
Gee, you're just so ephemeral
Go back for new
For new in vain, it failed

Singing on the famous street
I want to love a boy that won't love me
Am I just in heaven or Las Vegas
It's so much more brighter than the sun is to me

He's a hustler
It's a role, he'll never make a suit
Hang on to this
So stay and spin and fail and fail
Who'll ever win?
Gee, you're just so ephemeral
Go back for new
For new in vain, it failed

Singing on the famous street
I want to love a boy that won't love me
Am I just in heaven or Las Vegas
It's so much more brighter than the sun is to me
The chill must itch in my soul
That's like any old playing card
It must be why I'm thinking of Las Vegas
It's why it's more brighter than the sun is to me

Furthermore, let's blast it off
I'm dizzy so I go, another bit it off
Come fantasy, for a carnival
I'm empty before our wedding

Singing on the famous street
I want to love a boy that won't love me
Am I just in heaven or Las Vegas
It's so much more brighter than the sun is to me
The chill must itch in my soul
That's like any old playing card
It must be why I'm thinking of Las Vegas
It's why it's more brighter than the sun is to me

Maybe there, while you was rail
I'll go in and seize your heart and be personal
I suspect I'm singing to you a tune
And still you find the beat and sing it to you soon.

The White Light Heat first show

Photo by Alvin Kusuma Negara

The White Light Heat first show on Drop to 90's Event 19 des 2010 @Newseum Indonesia Jl. Veteran I no. 31 Jakarta Pusat. Indonesia.


Our Playlist :
1. The Wild Ones by Suede
2. Bully Boy by Shed Seven
3. Queen of The City by Velvet Tongue

The White Light Heat

Nasi Goreng Mangkok Cempaka Putih

Hello Loner,

Gue ama temen gue jerry, ronny melajukan mobil setelah kita berlatihan band baru kita The White Light Heat yang bakalan maen tgl 19-12-2010 di Newseum Indonesia di jalan veteran I no 31, yang mana gue sendiri belum tau tempatnya, hehhehehe. kita bakalan maenin 3 lagu diantaranya Bully Boy - Shed seven, The Wild Ones - Suede, Queen of the City - Velvet Tongue, maap semuanya cover lagu orang kita belum punya lagu sendiri hehhehe.

Kita latihan 3 jam kemaren dari jam 6-9 mlm, udah kayak orang bener aje lo pade ah, hehehe. setelah latian sang gitaris Chadox yang juga maen di Parklife membuat planning yang menyesatkan tapi batal semua karena kita udah lapar dan chadox mental karena harus jemput istrinya terus gue ama jerry beriringan dan parkirin mobil jerry dulu ke circle K sabang. trus kita ber3 dalam mobil yang berasap melaju ke cempaka putih, sempet liat ada kendaraan boncengan mau tubir gitu ama kendaraan laen yang boncengan ber3 dengan cewe 2 di belakang. WOW. hahhahahhaha.

Setalah berbelak belok kesana kemari akhirnya kita menemukan Nasi Goreng Mangkok Cempaka Putih, wow times fly so fast gue udah ga inget ni daerah padahal dulu sering banget bareng ama temen-temen makan di situ, dan setelah pesen datang lah tuh nasi goreng mangkoknya, BUSET kita ber3 tercengang ama porsinya yang kalo akta jerry "porsi pulang ngubur" alias buaaanyaak buaangeet dan rasa nya tetep yahud AJIB dah. setelah bertahun-tahun akhirnya terbayar sudah kangen gue makan nih nasi goreng, dan kita balik dengan perut yang penuh dan kenyang bego. thanx to ma prente Jerry Delhaye.

The Wallflowers - 6th Avenue Heartache

6th Avenue Heartache lyric :

Sirens ring, the shots ring out

A stranger cries, screams out loud

I had my world strapped against my back

I held my hands, never knew how to act

Chorus:

And the same black line that was drawn on you

Was drawn on me

And now it's drawn me in

6th Avenue heartache

Below me was a homeless man

I'm singin' songs I knew complete

On the steps alone, his guitar in hand

It's fifty years, stood where he stands

Now walkin' home on those streets

The river winds move my feet

Subway steam, like silhouettes in dreams

They stood by me, just like moonbeams

Look out the window, down upon that street

And gone like a midnight was that man

But I see his six strings laid against that wall

And all his things, they all look so small

I got my fingers crossed on a shooting star

Just like me, just moved on.

Wikipedia :

The first single from their 1996 album Bringing Down the Horse. The single was released in summer 1996, and became their first hit, peaking at #8 on the Modern Rock Tracks chart and #10 on the Mainstream Rock Tracks chart.

Jakob Dylan, the band's lead singer, wrote the song when he was eighteen years old, and considered it the first real song he had written. It was meant to go on their self-titled first album, but the record company would not allow it. The lyrics are based on Dylan's own experiences while living in New York, in particular the story of a homeless man who would sit outside his window and play the same songs every day. One day the man was gone, but his things were still there, until gradually people started taking them.

Mike Campbell from Tom Petty and The Heartbreakers played the slide guitar on the song, though he recorded the track in his own studio, and never even met the band members. Adam Duritz from Counting Crows contributed backing vocals. The video, shot in New York, was directed by movie director David Fincher, known for such films as Se7en and Fight Club.

Album of All Time That Change My Life List

01. Sgt. Pepper Lonely Heart Club Band by The Beatles

02. Sticky Fingers by The Rolling Stones

03. Blood On Tracks by Bob Dylan

04. The Wall by Pink Floyd

05. Nevermind by Nirvana

06. Ok Computer by Radiohead

07. Ten by Pearl Jam

08. Purple by Stone Temple Pilot

09. Come On Feel The Lemonheads by The Lemonheads

10. A Hard Days Night by The Beatles

11. Wish by The Cure

12. Urban Hymn by The Verve

13. Bringing Down The Horse by The Wallflowers

14. Cracked Rear View by Hootie & the Blowfish

15. Throwing Coopper by Live

16. Hints, Allegations, and Things Left Unsaid by Collective Soul

17. Shake Your Money Maker by The Black Crowes

18. And Justice For All .... by Metallica

19. Are You Experience? by Jimi Hendrix

20. Greatest Hits by Janis Joplin

21. Recovering The Satellites by Counting Crowes

22. First Band On The Moon by The Cardigans

23. Blood Sugar Sex Magic by Red Hot Chilli Peppers

24. Nothing's Shocking by Janes Addiction

25. Suit... Suit.... Hehehe by Slank

26. Step By Step by New Kids On the Block

27. Kiss This by Sex Pistols

28. ...And Out Come the Wolves by Rancid

29. Dookie by Green Day
30. Coming Up by Suede

Kenapa sih?

Hello Loner,

Hari ini berasa moody dan males ngapa-ngapain, dan hari ini seharian bareng nyokap gue, adek gue, ama sodara-sodara kumpul-kumpul dan jalan jalan sekalian nengokin Pakde gue yang sakit, dan gue sempet seneng hari ini pas ke Singapur ("singgalan taman puring" kalo kata temen gue Biakto) dapet 2 CD The Lemonheads, ama cd promo nya Counting Crowes (tapi sialnya cd counting crowesnya udah ga bisa di dengerin).

Dan tiba-tiba pas gue balik ke kosan dan nyalain internet, trus gue bukalah Facebook gue, eh ada temen yang nyapa di chat FB gue. dan setelah dia nanya kabar gue bla bla bla, dia cerita soal mimpi dia semalem. Jadi dia tiba-tiba tanpa sebab apa-apa di dalam mimpinya ada gue yang mati menyeramkan (kata dia), HAH? kenapa udah ada beberapa temen gue yang ngimpiin gue dan di mimpi mereka gue mati, semua cerita itu bikin gue ketakutan sampe ubu-ubun.

Apakah semua itu ada sebuah tanda bahwa Allah negor gue lewat temen-temen gue? dan tapi apa sih arti mimpi-mimpi itu semua? ada juga temen gue yang ngimpiin gue lagi di gendong seorang Habib / Kyai besar pekalongan. semua teka teki supranatural ini membuat gue mikir sekaligus ketakutan, yang gue bingung kenapa udah terjadi beberapa kali ya... ada juga yang mimpiin gue mati sebelum menikah.

apa semua ini hanya bumbu tidur aja atau ada tegoran buat gue yang harus cepat gue sadari atau apa... mmm ga tau juga deh.

Drop to 90's

Albert Hoffman Flashback

Albert Hoffman

RIP: Albert Hoffman, Father Of LSD, Dead At 102

EROWID: Albert Hofmann passed away at his home at 9am on Tuesday Apr 29, 2008 of a heart attack at the age of 102. He will be missed. Albert Hofmann was born in Baden, Switzerland in 1906. He graduated from the University of Zürich with a degree in chemistry in 1929 and went to work for Sandoz Pharmaceutical in Basel, Switzerland. With the laboratory goal of working towards isolation of the active principles of known medicinal plants, Hofmann worked with Mediterranean squill (Scilla maritima) for several years, before moving on to the study of Claviceps purpurea (ergot) and ergot alkaloids.Over the next few years, he worked his way through the lysergic acid derivatives, eventually synthesizing LSD-25 for the first time in 1938. After minimal testing, LSD-25 was set aside as he continued with other derivatives. Four years later, on April 16, 1943, he re-synthesized LSD-25 because he felt he might have missed something the first time around. That day, he became the first human to experience the effects

of LSD after accidentally ingesting a minute amount. Three days later, on April 19, 1943, he decided to verify his results by intentionally ingesting 250 ug of LSD. This day has become known as “Bicycle Day” as Hofmann experienced an incredible bicycle ride on his way home from the lab.

In addition to his discovery of LSD, he was also the first to synthesize psilocybin (the active constituent of ‘magic mushrooms’) in 1958. Albert Hofmann, known as the ‘father of LSD’, continued to work at Sandoz until 1971 when he retired as Director of Research for the Department of Natural Products. He continued to write, lecture, and play a leading role as an elder in the psychedelic community until his death at the age of 102. MORE

WIKIPEDIA: Hofmann called LSD “medicine for the soul” and was frustrated by the worldwide prohibition that has pushed it underground. “It was used very successfully for 10 years in psychoanalysis,” he said, adding that the drug was hijacked by the youth movement of the 1960s and then unfairly demonized by the establishment that the movement opposed. He conceded that LSD can be dangerous in the wrong hands.^[5] In December 2007, Swiss medical authorities permitted a psychotherapist to perform psychotherapeutical experiments with patients who suffer from terminal stage cancer and other deadly diseases. Although not yet started, these experiments will represent the first study of the therapeutic effects of LSD on humans in 35 years, as other studies have focused on the drug’s effects on consciousness and body. Hoffmann supported the study, and continued to believe in the therapeutic benefits of LSD.^[7] Hofmann was due to speak at the World Psychedelic Forum^[6] from March 21 to March 24, 2008 but was forced to pull out due to poor health. MORE

Feather Dylan

LSD (Lysergic acid diethylamide)

"If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, infinite" William Blake

Hanya Saja

Hello loner,

Kayak emang jarang gue nulis di blog ini. maksutnya nulis apa yang ada di kepala. Karena gue lebih bisa menumpahkan dengan lagu2 itu, pideo itu, coretan itu, image2 itu dan semua itu lah.

saat gue menulis ini gue lagi di keadaan yang sungguh tidak mengenakan, kerjaan mundur terus, bahkan ada yang kabur ga jelas jadi dalam artian laen gue lagi "tongpes". Tersirat juga apa emang karena gue nya aja yang pemalas? haduh emang susah bener ngilangin sifat malas, maafkan ya Allah atas segala kemalasan ku ini. Susah bener memang jadi giat kalo punya kantor di kosan sendiri, di kamar 4x4 meter ini.

Oh iya tiba2 gue keinget kata2 gue ke temen gue. dia menyarankan supaya gue ga terlalu penyendiri dan males bersosialisasi dan jadi lebih berani menghadapi apa yang di depan, dan menjawab nasehat dia dengan " Aku ngga takut dengan sesuatu yang baru, tapi Aku takut akan hal yang sudah terbiasa ".

Terkadang memang kita lebih takut akan hal yang sudah terbiasa dari pada hal-hal yang kita baru saja berjumpa, emang kadang2 sih, walau kita akan lebih sering nyakitin orang yang sudah ber tahun2 mencintai kita dari pada orang yang baru kita kenal. Tapi untuk beberapa hal sepertinya akan lebih relefan apa perkataan gue tadi.

Apakah bener relefan? atau gue hanya tak tahan pingin ngebales perkatan dia?

The Verve - On Your Own

On Your Own lyric :

Tell me what you see
Was it a dream? Was I in it?
Life seemed so obscene until it's over
Who knows?

All I want is someone who can fill the hole
In the life I know
In between life and death when there's nothing left
Do you wanna know?

You come in on your own
And you leave on your own
Forget the lovers you've know
And your friends on your own


Tell me if it's true
That I need you, you are changing
I've seen this road before down on the floor
It is hurting me

All I want is someone who can fill the hole in the life I know
In between life and death when there's nothing left
Do you want to know?

You come in on your own
And you leave on your own
Forget the lovers you've know
And your friends on your own

Lies I've got to get rid of this whole inside.

The Hire: Star Madonna (BMW short film) HQ

The Hire: Star Madonna (BMW short film)

• with Madonna
• Directed by Guy Ritchie
• Featured the BMW M5

Guy Ritchie

Guy Stuart Ritchie (born 10 September 1968) is an English screenwriter, film maker, pub landlord, fathers rights family law reformer and businessman.

Filmography :

Year	Film	Notes	Credited as
1995	The Hard Case	20 min short film	Director		Writer
1998	Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels	Feature film debut	Director		Writer
2000	Snatch		Director		Writer
2001	The Hire: Star	BMW Short Film Commercial	Director
2002	Swept Away	With Madonna	Director		Writer
2005	Revolver		Director		Writer
2007	Suspect	Television	Director
2008	RocknRolla		Director	Producer	Writer
2009	Sherlock Holmes		Director
2011	Sherlock Holmes 2		Director
2012	The Fistfull		Director		Writer